I'am very bussy with my skilled work at the moment... I think the next weeks will be very exhausting and leached because of this and some other problems.

Well I've to start with my skilled work in the next days and I hope I can manage it
I plan to make illustrations of some Lovex- Songs...I don't know if it works... Sometimes it's very difficult to illustrate the situations and feelings and to understand what they mean... I'am very nervous...

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Maybe one of you can give me some inspiration for this song?
I try to get ideas for it vainly...

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Belong To No One (by Lovex)

I’m hanging on a threat
So much in me feels sick but I only want
To confront
What’s meant for me with a hint of dignity

Dreadful to see
A life lived as a slave for the industry
Smothered fantasies
Gone down the drain along with the poison running through the vein

I’ve felt the temptation
Pleasure gained by addiction
But I won’t trade my pride for feeling good
I’ll suffer just as much as I need to

I’m not the one who’s waiting for you
I won’t give in, I belong to no one
I am not the one with a guilty conscience
But is it wrong to belong to no one

I learned the hard way
To appreciate myself too much to love
Unconditionally
But so much control has left a hole in me

Suspicions wear me down
I will never be completely free
I’m a servant
Of my obsession to question everything

I’ve felt the temptation
Happiness gained by illusions
But I won’t deceive my mind with substitutes
I’ll rather grow as much as I need to

I’m not the one who’s waiting for you
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In the midst of chaos
On these decadent streets
I stand at the crossroads
Should I pretend or surrender?